Year 5

Davin and I have now officially lived in Marshalltown since last Sunday... the Sunday before Christmas. Time has really flown by. We have come a long way since then. We have owned a house, both gotten jobs in the areas that we went to school with, lost some grandparents, found new friends, lost some in the making also, been pregnant twice, but no kids yet..., painted, got new cars, got a boat, remodeled our basement, rearranged, got a hot tub, put in fences, redid the floor in 4 rooms, put up Christmas lights, and much much more...

Wow I kinda got on a rant... here is how we have changed...
Then: Just Married...Now: 5 years and going strong!

Then: When we put the offer in on the house!

Now: Repainted, with christmas lights up...

Then: 10 weeks old!

Now: 5 years Old!

Decorating with My Blissful Chaos!!!

I decided to decorate... That is after we rearranged our entire house (Davin and I together). We moved our bedroom downstairs to the family room. Now we have a huge master suite! We decided "what the heck, we have no kids, so why not..." after all it is our house. We might as well use it how are you want to. This required a lot of moving. We move our bedroom downstairs. The downstairs family room upstairs to the living room. The guest room into the master bedroom. The nursery stuff into the spare room (no baby yet)... and the office back into the tiny room. Yeah that was a lot of hard work! ( Pictures to follow)
We also had my parents come and help us in remodeling the utility room into a master bathroom! We still have a lot of work!
While all of this was happening... our house has become a pit. I have been talking to Hannah (a k a blissful chaos), about decorating our house... we had a hard time getting together. But, She came over! And here are some results of our hard work:

Updates...

So after my first miscarriage I had to do a lot of soul searching... the summer was hard. I have become more relied on God. I desperately searched for reasons on why this happened to me...I believe now that it has brought me closer to God. I realized that Mark 11:24 is now my first verse in the bible.

"Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours."

I truly believe that God will answer my prayers for a new bundle of joy in our lives. I prayed so much that my new spiritual gift is Faith... lol.
On September 1st of this year, I found out that I was pregnant again!!! I was still worried that something was going to happen... And sure enough on September 8th I miscarried again...

The thing that I have taken from this one is that I need to trust God that he will only give me what I can handle at a time. I need to trust that he will take care of me.
We went to the doctor to see if there is anything that we can do to prevent it from happening again. Unfortunately, insurance will not cover any costs until you have had 3 miscarriages. But the doctor put us back on hormones with the hope that next time it will be the one that works! Third time is a charm right?

Summer Comes to an End and School Starts!!!

I never finished how July ended, but the last month of summer flew by and before I knew it, it was school time again... I am excited about this year, because for one...I know what I am doing (kinda) and for two...I am use to some of the kids. Both of my classes are crazy!!! In kindergarten we have a 15:6 ratio of boys to girs, and in 1st grade we have a 15:7 ratio of girls to boys. My patience is tested on a daily basis, even with the kids that are not on my "list."

I am excited that Davin and I have become closer. I have also watched all but three of the entire series of Friends (the TV show)!!! that is a feat in its self. Anyways that is all for now. Just an update on my life.

July! Part 1

I should probably start to blog more often. Some of you blog on a weekly basis.

Davin and I have had a busy month. We have had lots of visitors and a storm to top it all off.

On July 4th weekend, my sister Jenni brought her friend Jeff for a visit. He is an interesting person and we had to adjust to his gluten free vegan diet. We went fishing and almost got sent to jail- Lesson learned pay for the $10 day pass.

(Jenni - The mighty Fishing Woman!)

Then we had a week to ourselves. Until, early one Monday morning we got a rude awakening by the weather radio. I went into the kitchen to see what was going on, while D slept. I just got the TV turned on, and then the Tornado Alarm go off!!! Good thing we have had a lot of practice getting all of our "children" into the cramped storage area off of the garage. We sat in darkness for what seemed like for ever and this is what we came out to...

(just couple of Limbs down in our front yard)

(Southridge)...

Life Lost, hope regained!

It has been a while now since my loss. I have kept it to myself, not sharing with anyone who I don't consider family. On the early morning of June third, 2011, the day after school got out, I had this urge to take a pregnancy test. Side-note: I had already taken 2 the previous 2 weeks, both with negative results. As I waited for what seemed like an eternity, I was thinking about how I had just survived my first successful school year. When I looked over at the test I was expecting to see "NOT PREGNANT," but to my surprise I saw "PREGNANT!" I panicked, I had never had a positive result in three whole years. I went and woke Davin up, and started to cry. Later I called my doctor and had them confirm with the blood test...still at this time I was in doubt. Something did not feel right. That night we could not hold it in and told our whole family...
The next day Davin wanted to celebrate, so we went to Des Moines and visited Babies R Us. We spent some money... and then went out to eat. The next morning...I woke up with cramps and spotting. I tried to take it easy and not do much, but by that night the cramps had increased and so did the spotting. I finally caved and called the nurse. The doctor told me to go in in the morning and get my blood rechecked. With much deliberation I went in the next morning, and sure enough my levels had dropped...I was miscarrying. By then the cramps were so bad, I had to breath through some of them.
I called Davin in tears, he was so upset too. Then I called my mom, and she too started to cry. I could not take anymore. I had wanted that baby so bad...I texted everyone else, I could not talk anymore. As I drove home from the clinic, I had a lot of time to process what I was feeling. I came home and put on comfy clothes and fell asleep. I did not want to talk, I did not want to do anything. Davin came home shortly after that and tried to comfort me...
That night I lost everything I had hoped for and dreamed about. It has taken a while, but now I know that my body does work, and that I can get what I have always dreamed about. I pray everyday that God will see my wants, and bless Davin and I with a bundle of pure joy.

Year 5 starting

Davin and I have been married for 5 years and 3 weeks! We celebrated our anniversary by going to the botanical gardens in Des Moines and eating at PF Changs-We always eat here on our anniversary. When we got married people asked us when we were going to have kids...I said right away or in 2 years, Davin said 5-7 years. So come on, I apparently had to wait for Davin's prediction. We will have to see when that time will come in the next two years...hopefully.

Davin and I have had our ups and downs, but the ups seem to over shadow the downs. Yes we argue and yell at each other, but I think that is a healthy relationship. I actually enjoy the disagreements that we have. He always wants to lecture me, and I want him to look good (these are 2 of our main arguments).

I have to look at what we have in our lives (not in any particular order)...
1. Careers!!!-both of us are in the career that we went to school for!
2. Pets-2 dogs and 2 cats!
3. Cars-Davin has his pick-up truck (Dodge Ram 1500) and I have my new Honda Civic-Tinted
4. Home-We currently live in Marshalltown, IA in a 3 bedroom split level house.
5. Families- Even though they are far away, we do get to talk to them on the phone.
6. Friends- This year I have made many new friends and have renewed my old friendships.
7. Neighbors- We live next to the nicest elderly woman, Jan-where Spencer currently lives, Also Mike and Cindy are wonderful too.
8. Each other- We have been together for a 7.5 years. This is a relationship based on God. I love Davin more each day.

Davin and I thank everyone who had a role in our marriage together. God has blessed us in many ways, and I can't wait to see what is in store for us!

Life update- as of the end of March

Davin was gone for a little over 3 weeks, experienced an earthquake, but escaped having to deal with the tsunami. He is glad to be home, and is still adjusting to life in the Midwest again.
I started my first Grad school class, and yikes it is a lot of work, but only lasts 8weeks! I am excited to finish my first year of school in less than 9 weeks! Yesterday we had parent/teacher conferences until 8 pm. About 1/2 way through we got the news that there had been a bomb threat for today at the middle school. Then they let us know that we would not have school today! Exciting, but scary all at the same time.
I have 1 more IEP to finish, maybe 2 then my year will be complete. Then summer starts... 3 more classes for a grand total of 8 credits finished before the end of July. Yikes, not to mention all of the spring outside work. Oh well life goes on, all that I can do is hang on and enjoy the ride!

Another Year...

Every year I evaluate my life, and how it has changed. Last year, the 26th year, was amazing, frustrating, discouraging, encouraging, and full of changes.
This last year I subbed for 1/2 of it and then the other 1/2 I got one of the two things that my heart desired-a job. And although my job is hard, frustrating, and I have no idea what I am doing at times, I love it! I can officially say that I am employed full time in the profession that I $pent lots of time and money on in school. I have learned a lot and have an extraordinary support system who all want me to succeed. This is not a job that I would have chosen for myself, but it is one that chose me, and I would have to say that I have gotten many compliments on the strategies that I use with my students... some days I think that I was made for this job.
On top of the job, I am enrolled at UNI as a grad student starting to work on getting my masters in Special Education. I am excited about the class that I am starting next week, and the fact that I have no "summer" due to the other fact that I will be in class(9 credit hours)!!! Special Ed. here I come.
Then there is the husband, and although I do complain sometimes, he is here supporting me. He felt so guilty for moving us to the "middle of nowhere" and that I was not able to have the 2 things that I desired the most. He was there when I was angry, he was there when I was frustrated, he was there to celebrate with me, and he is there to love me and take care of me. When they say that there is one person matched for each of us, I found my chubby hubby that is just right. Lately we have been able to read each others' minds, we love to sit and relax in each others' company. I love him even though he is 1/2 way across the world on my birthday.
Family is very important to me also, I can never laugh so hard with anyone else! We have many inside jokes,and it seems that our relationships have grown to a place of acceptance. My parents are amazing and have a lot to be proud of! All three of their children are employed, self dependant, and spiritual in their own ways. Thank you to mom and dad for everything!
My life has become full, in ways that I could only imagine. I do not want to mention the part of my life that is not in place yet-being a mother. It is frustrating to see others become happy when you can not, but it is something that has made me stronger and appreciate everything that I have. God knows the way, I just have to follow him.
FRIENDS, I have lost some and gained great new friends. I have friend that will always know me, that feel like family, and that I trust like no other. I have new friends and old friends, they are all loving and accepting of me. Thank you for being there!
Even though I was freaking out about turning 27, I think "what can this year bring?" and I get excited about all of the possibilities.
~Heidi

Life goes on....

Have you ever had a "perfect" life, doubtful. Just when you feel like everything is working out, life throws you a pothole. There are too many factors that you have to deal with, friends, family, work, spouses, education, and not to mention the spouse. There are plenty of other factors not included in that list.

I have been thinking about my life as 2011 has come, and Here is what IA have come up with. My true friends, are ones that care about me, it does not matter how long we have been apart it is never awkward, we just pick back up where we left off. My husband loves me no matter if I have make up on, hair done, my body type, or if I am grumpy or more... My family is supportive but not intrusive. My job is stressful, but I love it!!!

That is all I got for now!